my fam damily. randomly.

taken from the archives.

i've realized i'm not very good at capturing moments. blogging special stuff. PRINTING pics and SCRAPBOOKING them. is it that i think they have to be reeeeeeally, reeeally important events in order to deserve a fancy layout? no...i'm gonna go with laziness. yup. that's me.

special moments are often small, insignificant moments, i know. in 10 years it would be fun to look back at some favorite meals from 2011. for instance, my tortilla soup makes my son happy and makes my daughter GAG. (what doesn't make that girl gag, though, i mean really....OH that's right! annies mac and cheese...) she's just lucky i haven't been in the mood for lentil soup recently. (last time she ate ONE lentil. ONE.)

madi got a make-up set for christmas and said, "look, mama, this is how auntie _____ wears her make-up...like a rainbow!" {snicker}

awe, the joys of letting my hair grow. one word. beanies. two words, actually. beanies and braids. when i say three words, beanies, braids and dreadlocks....please stop me.

i still don't have words for this.

my babies' first dance.

in elementary school!?!?!

i mean, really, people, reeeeeally....

i know i'm gonna be 29 next month, but come on.

my kids. at a valentines day dance.

{sigh}

p.s...kaden would not allow photos of him dancing. there also may or may not have been tears shed by my son when i, his mother, did the electric slide. at his school. in front of his friends.

it's a no-no, folks.

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go.

take some pics.

blog about 'em.

or scrapbook 'em.

or frame 'em.

or just put 'em on the damn fridge.

it'll make you happy.

promise.

xo

i'm a proud mama bear.

i think all mothers struggle with this "i'm never gonna be a good enough mother" thing. at least at some point in their years as a mama bear. :) i tend to be lacking in the patience department. i am short fused and sometimes grouchy, but i could not LOVE my kids more. and i think that's what drives me to try, try, try to be a better mom. i want to see them learn, succeed, be happy, loving and compassionate little people (that grow up to be happy, loving and compassionate BIG people) and most of all feel loved by me and the people we choose to surround ourselves with. i was having one of those you-need-to-get-your-act-together-jeseca meltdowns last week when BOTH of the kids' teachers stopped me to say, "you might wanna come to the award ceremony tomorrow morning!". {smiles}

and guess what.....
i have a student of the month AND an outstanding reader?
oh yes i do. :))
you guys make me soooo proud.
i love you.

-mama :)

i am just me.

some days i wonder where i went.

where I went.

as a mom i sometimes feel like i am just going through the motions and doing just what needs to be done for my kids. which is totally fine. i would do anything for them, but there are moments when i am sitting quietly by myself and i don't even know how to have a thought that's just about me. it's almost as if i am uncomfortable with being just me. wow. it's a lonely feeling, which is strange, being that i am surrounded by my littles all the time. so i am on this journey. it's a very spiritual one. to find Who and what makes me....ME. and be comfortable with it. happy even. and love it.

i'm on my way.

jes xo

chocolate. polka dots. and kids.

the kiddos had the day off today

 (soooo nice not to have to get up when there is still frost on the grass and walk to school)

so we had some good times on the homestead.

we played games and watched movies.

                                   who knew chutes and ladders was such a competitive game?

hmmm. not me. i never win when we play games anyway. especially NOT memory games, omg. maddy's princess memory game...ya know the one where sleeping beauty is posed in like 12 different ways. yeah...how i am supposed to remember that card was the one where she was smelling a rose and not dancing...?? cheah. okay. i am ok with losing.
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all i have to say about these is how did i ever live without them??

DEEEEEELISH.

and healthy.

no...not totally.

but healthier than twinkies, right?

right.

oh be still my heart.

polka dots.

on a canvas.

{sigh}

but that's all i got. this poor little canvas has been sitting like this for a little while now...not quite sure where to go from here. WHY IS THAT? i hate that! there are lots of layers of awesome sauce under those polka dots and i just don't want to ruin it, i guess. i have been soooo wishy washy lately that i don't want to paint or collage something onto it and then 5 minutes later regret it.

hmmmmph.

sucha dilemna.

i am workin workin on more new goods for the shop, so stay tuned.

be back tomorrow, lovelies.

jes xo

words.

i have been clinging to words lately.

words of encouragement.

words of inspiration.

words of hope and determination.

"in order to discover new lands one has to lose sight of the shore."

looks like i'm going sailing.

jes xo

p.s.

welcome to my new blog. i will be sharing my life, my loves, my hopes and struggles, and some fun stuff, too. like my little etsy shop. this is my fresh start, people. i'd love for you to join me.